Thursday, December 31, 2009

Unban techboy

TDF = thinkdigit.ocm/forum

TE =

Techboy = Me

TB was banned after the 1900XTX issues threads and then he went all the way to changing over a dozen ids @ TE until the time the moderators finally got tired and accepted him to be decent enough to stay on the forums as "rite". But TB still remains banned.

So now there are talks to unban TB, that is me.

BTW, I am not self-obsessed. :P

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Shopping Spree

Just bought hardware worth about 60k, a Coolermaster HAF 932 chassis(ie. cabinet) worth 9200 and just ordered hi fi speakers Audioengine A5B worth 18950.

I really hope that I save a lot more and earn a lot more off course next year. The new year is doing to be bad, very bad and very tough anyway. The least that I can be gifted with is a flourishing business and oodles of money.



Monday, December 28, 2009

College Life is Such a Waste

My college life is such a waste. 3 years of studying studying and only studying. Well not three, but the remaining 2.5 years I plan to take really seriously. So something like 3-5 hours a day of studying. Now that doesn't leave me with too much time, does it?

Whatever is left is taken up by my work, although just by Weaving Thoughts for now. To top is, the CA is crazy over my head to do some serious accounting and which in his opinion is going to take more than what I work in a day. Now that is a crazy life! :(

Whatever little is left, I either talk to phone to either Ajit, Roshni or Sandy for the time being and play a game or two. Often I may listen to music after my new speakers arrive. Now this part still isn't that bad but then that is hardly a fraction of the total time consumption.

With all that said, what time do I really have to do anything fruitful? After these mad years studying, all I plan to do are businesses which are barely related to the curriculum of my bachelors and where I have very good chances of success even otherwise. So it basically means I waste my time and loose my life to stupid stuff.

What a waste of my college life!

I Don't Wish

I don't know if people will find it strange or not, but I don't want what happened to me to happen to the girl who did it. Although I hate her like anything and consider her an enemy, there is no one for who I could wish to go through the pain I had to suffer through and which still makes me suffer.

I don't want even her to go though what she made me go through and I am sure about that. I know that she is a bad person, an insensitive person who is cold at heart, to the extent of being heartless, but she still doesn't deserve this sought of punishment.

It probably won't happen to her anyway. But in this case I don't think that I want the law of karma to apply.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I Am All Over the Place

Just today I got to know that theinquirer as in or .net has quoted me from Anandtech.

Now, I am really a celebrity. :P

Friday, December 25, 2009

A Clarification

Assuming her to be my angel, I promised her that I won't blog about her. And I didn't. Only once I started believing that she wasn't that angel, did I start bitching about that girl.

I never went against the wishes of my angel. It wasn't my angel who had asked me to stop blogging. So I never disobeyed her.

And I have no obligations towards the girl who I bitched about.

Warm Regards


Thursday, December 24, 2009

I apologize to Guruji

I think for the time being I can apologize to Guruji and the Dera.

Dhan Dhan Satguru Tera Hi Asra...

Althought Guruji has disappointed me, and I will never deny that. But it is too early to conclude.

Warm Regards


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Program Cancelled

Will not be able to start Weaving Dreams due to lack of time. I need to concentrate on my studies for the time being, something like 3-5 hours daily which doesn't leave me a couple of hours every day for WD that too at odd hours with respect to my college timings.

Nevertheless, I plan to expand Weaving Thoughts and if possible spend more time to it.

Warm Regards


Thursday, December 17, 2009

December 2007

I regret that decision.

In December 2007 I went to Guruji (Sirsa) to solve my problem. He supposedly showed me the path and moved me away from the path of suicide. In February 2008 I reiterated that my dreams will be blessed true. I regret of not having committed suicide back then, when I had the will and the power.

Today I stand, weaker than ever. He asks for another 2.5 years to pass by before any of my wishes can be granted. Now how is that fair? Is he not being unfair? Isn't he cheating me?

And how the hell is it in best interest to go through so much pain. I see no reason as to how it can benefit anybody.

I am so disappointed. But then I have no choice but walk his path and study my ass off the next 2.5 years.

From tomorrow I will now try to study some 4 odd hours daily in the hope of inviting heaven to my life.

:) :( :P :D

Movies are no fun...

Movies are no longer fun. Just today I went for Rocket Singh in gold class with Gagandeep, despite spending a couple of thoussands today I am not satisfied.

Movies are no longer what they used to mean to me. I always miss my angel and want to be with her. I try to feel her, always. I crave for her each second.

Why God? Why?


Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The WAIT continues...

Returned from Sirsa, last evening. The wait in my quest to happiness continues for the time being. On losing the bet I win VICTORY.

Let time unfold...

Friday, December 11, 2009

My Destiny is Death...

I have got no choice but hope that my destiny is death. And destiny real soon. That is the only way to relieve me of my pain.

So much I long for death. I see no other solution. Alas! I don't know when will that joyful moment come?

So much do I long for death...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I feel like I am in love :)

I almost feel like I am in love. I just upgraded me PC worth around 60 grands and I am almost in love with the performance. Almost everything runs perfect, much better than I could have dreamt or asked for. Things go silky smooth. I can multitask without pretty much any hassles.

And this is the kind of performance increase I get when I already have a hi fi rig in most people opinions.

Processor : Core i7 860
Like 10% or something slower than the fastest CPU in the world and a whole lot faster than my previous CPU which was upgraded just about 6 months back for around 15 grands. Previously I had a quad core Intel Q9550 2.83GHz.

Motherboard : MSI P55 GD65
HardOCP VFM enthusiast motherboard. Need I asy more? My previous motherboard was crap.

RAM : (to be upgraded to this) G Skill Ripjaw series DDR3 1600 CAS 8
One of the fastest RAMs out there. 2 X 2GB. Even previously I had 4 GB RAM.

HDD : 1TB Seagate 7200.12 32mb cache
Oodles of fast space. Much faster than my previous Western Digital Green 640GB.

2 new DVD RWs, the old one was slow and worn out. One 22x Samsung and the other HP 24x.

And the greatest of all, the card which Americans today crave for and which few Indians have. Sapphire HD 5850 1GB which is one of the fastest graphic cards money can buy if you leave out dual GPU configurations and the best thing is that it is DX 11 compatible. :D

The CPU cooler Thermalright Ultra 120 is to be put on soon as well. And I just came to know that my PSU was GP AL650AA and not AL650A, now that is something. :)

NFS Shift runs way better than the way even NFS Undercover used to run on my previous rig. It is nearly flawless. Farcry 2 and Call of Juarez : Bound in Blood are even better, especially the later. FEAR 2 and UT 3 run awesome and even Dirt 2 runs great.

Except Crysis, I play all games at 1920x1080 full HD everything maxed out with or without AA depending on the game and AF set 16x. PERIOD!!!

Had it not been for Crysis, I would probably have gone absolutely crazy over it. :( :D

Had I not fallen in love with my angel, I would have fallen in love with this performance for sure, LOL. Just kidding!

I still miss my angel a hell of a lot and will wait for her after death...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

It is all WORTH the wait...

I have heard that our unfilled wishes are fullfilled in heaven. I wait for the moment when Heaven will embrace me and I will have my angel with me. It is all WORTH the wait. If required, I will live past this life for her...

In the meanwhile, please try to understand this riddle:

The first truth and the biggest lie is the existence of God.


Monday, November 30, 2009

Weaving Dreams

Finally my dreams will come true tomorrow. :)

Opening a partnership firm "Weaving Dreams" with a friend (and my computer dealer) Gagandeep.

Opening the bank account tomorrow.

Hopefully, the ball is start rolling soon enough...:P

Warm Regards


Friday, November 27, 2009

The Dera Lie...

Asked a so called Sai Maa of Sai Baba and she soughta admitted that the Dera Sacha Sauda is a lie.

Feeling really heartbroken.

I don't think that I have any need to study after this.



Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Hopes Partially Shattered!!!

Despite failing in my mid semester and having skrewed them really bad, I was hoping to target a perfect 80% in the end semester.

Alas! The first paper of Modern Business went really bad. I still do have some hope as 4 more papers are yet to happen.

I really hope that some miracle saves me.



Sunday, November 22, 2009

The Hidden Truth : Knowing Why?

I remember that an aunty blamed Hemray and said terrible things about him, of chopping him the day Aarushi was murdered. Finally, what did we find? That he was innocent.

That is precisely the point. We must not comment or conclude without knowing the complete truth. There is a lot which we think but it turns out right. Even I have made mistakes in thinking of a deeper reason where none existed, this for example is the contrary example. We must weigh out all sides commenting.

Also, it is very important to know the reason behind anything. What happens, when and where is not as important as why it happens. Without knowing the reason behind anything we must not claim it to be good or bad.

I know view things as right or wrong until I know the reason behind the same.

I hope all this makes sense!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Some posts to remember...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I can't live without...


My mother has gone to Lakshwadeep for a period of 3 months and I can't see in in between this period. All we have our a regular exchange of phone calls. But I don't really miss her as much.

At around the age of 12 years, my dadu expired. I never really missed him too much.

But there is one person I have always always always really missed and still miss and crave to be with, she is my angel. :(


Sunday, November 15, 2009

Now, That is Not Nice...

I have not received any payments from any of my clients in the last 1.5-2 days, not even $1. Now that is not too good. :(

I am really looking forward to a couple hundred dollars tomorrow, hopefully. :O

Does anybody know the reason for such bad luck? :P


Friday, November 13, 2009

Back on Anti-depressants...


Preponed my appointment for my physcatrist today. Back on anti-depressants as am really depressed.

Need I say more?

Does anybody need any more reasons from my side?



Thursday, November 12, 2009

Proving that God doesn't exist...

Now, who do we call God? Somebody who is full of love and compassion, somebody saturated with mercy. Right?

But wrong! Such a person doesn't exist. Had such a person existed would a lover be left separated from his lover forever, with no solution to the problem. No way of ever meeting again, not even after death. No love, only pain?

I can understand the Law of Karma and even some forms of handicaps, but separating a lover from another that too when you call him/her saturated with love makes no damn sense. Think about it...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


I really don't know why all that happened and whatever is happening or whatever is NOT happening, why is it or is it not happening. I am pretty confused and I must say I am confident enough to conclude that there is something fallaciously wrong in God's philosophies like "Whatever Happens, Happens For The Best".

I am 100% sure and enough to bet even my life on the same that whatever happened was crap and whatever is happening is not going to take any of us anywhere. I am pretty sure of that. What basically happened was to make a mockery of me and not the things are well nothing but that.


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Before Pulling the Trigger

A few goals I aim to accomplish before pulling the trigger:

Age 22 : Rs.5 lacs a month

Age 25 : Rs.20 lacs a month


And if things go right at the speed they are then I hope I make my dreams come true soon. This month I am already expecting a net income of Rs. 1.5-2 lacs and I really hope that I am able to make over 10-15 lacs in this financial year so it is not that bad a start at all.

In fact, this income is a huge improvement since before and I do hope that the bulk of work I am getting right now stays, so do the clients and writers. Then eventually I will start more businesses as well.

Let us hope for the best...

Friday, November 6, 2009

Obsessions VS Love

Was talking about obsessions with a friend recently, so thought should include a bit on that as well. I won't really be discussing much about love here, I guess I have done that before. I will just mention the factors which differentiates obsessions from true love.

The two characteristics of obsessions are:

It doesn't last forever. If not in this life then in the life after death, it will end sometime. The same can't be said about love.

It is selfish and with a motive which is not selfless. This is again contrary to love.

If any of the above mentioned characteristics are met then we can say that an obsession is at hand.

Also, obsessions are always with non-materialistic things and in case somebody is obsessed with a soul then that person is considering that soul to be a non-materialistic thing or a toy.

There is a degree of obsessiveness, you can be more or less obsessive, with time for instance. Love is constant, it starts from infitity and you love infinitely to infinity, it can't be measured. You can't love more or less. Obsessions are relative in that sense whereas love is absolute.

Another point to note will be that the work "Obsession" has a plural whereas Love is unchanged, ever, wherever, whoever, forever...:P

For instance, I love an imaginery angel but at one point of time was almost obsessed with my computer. So, well, obsessions needn't be only bad either.

Next post coming up soon :D

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Living an Illusion...

Can you tell me what it is to discover that you are living a life of illusion? I discovered this about myself a couple of months back, December 27th 2008...

I have lived the answer and I hate it. I wish there was a solution but ALAS!!! There is nobody to support me in such a quest and there is nobody to look upto, all that is left is life without any rest...

Hoping for better readership...


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Am I Wrong?

There once was a huge desert and none other than a wealthy water seller in the midst of it. He used to sell water for just Re.1 per glass but the bulk of tourists in the peak season made him lakhs annually.

One day a beggar came up to him begging for water. He was dying of thirst and had no water with him. Without water just 10 minutes of his life were left. He begged him repeatedly, asked for mercy, promised to return what he would borrow in monetary terms as soon as he got back.

But it wasn't the peak season and no friend nor foe came through. The seller was cruel and heartless and Re.1 was too much for him to spare. The beggar died :(

I blame the seller, Am I Wrong?



PS: A fictious story with a real cause.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

How Un-Lucky can I be?

Hey guys


Mystic Meg's Prediction :

"Akshay, I bring you GOOD news! Something you lost will soon turn up and make you happy."

Now this is so untrue, absolute BS!!!

Although just yesterday I did dream about something but it was quite a bit negative and made me weep in the morning.

On another note, I just hired 2 natives today so I can't exactly be the unluckiest person around. :P


It is Raining!!!

Back after a long time to mention that "It is Raining". I can't figure out how or why in this weather. Totally unexpected but it did rain, I am sure! :(


cya for now...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

How can I be sooooo unlucky?

After a really really long time ended up seeing a bitch yesterday. Thank God it didn't bite me. Weird coincidence though...

Saturday, July 4, 2009


Thank You Sai Baba, Thank You God!!!

Finally I made it to CBS with an awesome rank of 61...

Any person, enemy or friend can ask for a party now :D

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Stop taking those stupid IQ Tests...

It is time people realize that online free IQ tests are more often than not generic crap. They are highly misleading and doesn't show even the faintest true picture of your real score. School or Book IQ tests are much better that way, off course the best being professionally administered ones.

If you really want to measure your IQ, go in for these books:

The Ultimate IQ Test Book
Test Your IQ OR Check Your Own IQ by HJ Eyesnck


The Ultimate IQ Test Book 175 Binet Scale

Check Your Own IQ Average 170 Numerical 180 Wesler Scale

If you have to give some free online IQ tests, then go for these ones, they may or may not be accurate but certainly are fun if that is what you want:
They have got a few answers wrong though, you can ask me to correct them for you if you want Mensa Workout
27 out of 30

Websites which I found highly misleading: Although once they used to have a decent test, now they don't Again, capped at 144 and probably has a shielding effect when 120+

Most online IQ tests are based on the Wesler scale which is supposed to have reduced accuracy past 130 and non-existent past 160. It is the 15 SD (Standard Deviation) scale. Past that we normally use the Standard Binet scale which is 16 SD. Catell B scale is 24 SD.
From all the IQ tests and CAT questions that I did, I consider myself to be 170 on the Wesler scale and 175 on the Standard Binet scale.
115 Wesler = 116 Standard Binet
130 Welser = 132 Standard Binet and so on








130 Top 2.3% 1 in 44
145 Top 0.13% 1 in 744
160 Theoritically 1 in 30,000+
170 Theoritically 1 in 650,000 but probably practically 1 in 100,000
180 Theoritically 1 in 20,000,000 but practically 1 in 300,000
190 1 in 1,000,000
200 1 in 5,000,000,000

A person usually has a maximum IQ at the age of 16-22.

From what I feel, in the society we live, things are a lot different. Here is how...
120 Average amonst teachers and others
130 Average amongst doctors and lawyers
140 Average amongst researchers, PHDs etc
155+ Average amongst noble prize winners
125 is the average amongst students who go for post graduation

Therefore, in our society:

AVERAGE 120-140
People who get through decent colleges and/or those who go for post graduation.

People capable of making it to IITs or IIMs or the second options around.

People who are capable of scoring 100%ile in CAT, whether or not they achieve it.

RARE >170

I have recently also done CAT 2008 and the numerical and logical sections of CAT 2006 and CAT 2007. I could average somewhere around 70% with negative marking. 60-65% means a 100%ile. :D :P :) :D
I am not boasting but trying to point out that I scored well other than IQ tests as well.

From my little experience and knowledge, CAT percentage + 100 +-5-10 should roughly give your IQ score on the Wesler scale.

If you really want a somewhat accurate IQ score then go for the Ultimate IQ Test Book. Each test has 40 questions and has a limit of 1.5 hours. 16 questions means IQ 100 and each question thereafter is a +-5. There is no negative marking and the book is based on the Standard Binet scale from what I know.


Must be at least 30 minutes or more. 1-3 hours is recommended though.

Must have at least 40 questions.

Must have all three sections:
Numerical which must include series and the like
Visio-Spatial which includes figures
Verbal which is more than just vocabolary

Preferably must be professionally administered, so if you are good enough to do it yourself then it might pose less of a hindrance. :)

After 160 your score does not make much of a difference. Einstein had an IQ of 162 and Hawkings has a score of 168, yet they are regarded as the biggest geniuses ever. Above 140 you are suitable for any field, including science and philosophy and most noble prize winners are also between 155 and 165.

Friday, June 26, 2009

BBE(DU) results out...


Happy but slightly dissapointed!

Got Rank 30...waz expectin top 10 :(

Anyway, 30 is not bad either :P

Take care!


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

IP ko phod dala :P

Hi guys

I scored a rank 92 in IP CET 2009 (BBA Entrance).

I just can't imagine, a sub 100 after all. This is a great achievement really and it didn't take any effort as such either. :D

The downside is that I would rather choose Amity than any IP College. So...

Anyway, congrats to me, right?


Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Here we go again...

Should I start blogging again? This time I promise you no restrictions on the content that will be posted because I am the High Command this time. After all I am the CEO of Weaving Thoughts.

If anybody wants any top notch poetry or sansanikhez life stories then please let me know.

Weaving Thoughts