Thursday, December 31, 2009

Unban techboy

TDF = thinkdigit.ocm/forum

TE =

Techboy = Me

TB was banned after the 1900XTX issues threads and then he went all the way to changing over a dozen ids @ TE until the time the moderators finally got tired and accepted him to be decent enough to stay on the forums as "rite". But TB still remains banned.

So now there are talks to unban TB, that is me.

BTW, I am not self-obsessed. :P

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Shopping Spree

Just bought hardware worth about 60k, a Coolermaster HAF 932 chassis(ie. cabinet) worth 9200 and just ordered hi fi speakers Audioengine A5B worth 18950.

I really hope that I save a lot more and earn a lot more off course next year. The new year is doing to be bad, very bad and very tough anyway. The least that I can be gifted with is a flourishing business and oodles of money.



Monday, December 28, 2009

College Life is Such a Waste

My college life is such a waste. 3 years of studying studying and only studying. Well not three, but the remaining 2.5 years I plan to take really seriously. So something like 3-5 hours a day of studying. Now that doesn't leave me with too much time, does it?

Whatever is left is taken up by my work, although just by Weaving Thoughts for now. To top is, the CA is crazy over my head to do some serious accounting and which in his opinion is going to take more than what I work in a day. Now that is a crazy life! :(

Whatever little is left, I either talk to phone to either Ajit, Roshni or Sandy for the time being and play a game or two. Often I may listen to music after my new speakers arrive. Now this part still isn't that bad but then that is hardly a fraction of the total time consumption.

With all that said, what time do I really have to do anything fruitful? After these mad years studying, all I plan to do are businesses which are barely related to the curriculum of my bachelors and where I have very good chances of success even otherwise. So it basically means I waste my time and loose my life to stupid stuff.

What a waste of my college life!

I Don't Wish

I don't know if people will find it strange or not, but I don't want what happened to me to happen to the girl who did it. Although I hate her like anything and consider her an enemy, there is no one for who I could wish to go through the pain I had to suffer through and which still makes me suffer.

I don't want even her to go though what she made me go through and I am sure about that. I know that she is a bad person, an insensitive person who is cold at heart, to the extent of being heartless, but she still doesn't deserve this sought of punishment.

It probably won't happen to her anyway. But in this case I don't think that I want the law of karma to apply.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I Am All Over the Place

Just today I got to know that theinquirer as in or .net has quoted me from Anandtech.

Now, I am really a celebrity. :P

Friday, December 25, 2009

A Clarification

Assuming her to be my angel, I promised her that I won't blog about her. And I didn't. Only once I started believing that she wasn't that angel, did I start bitching about that girl.

I never went against the wishes of my angel. It wasn't my angel who had asked me to stop blogging. So I never disobeyed her.

And I have no obligations towards the girl who I bitched about.

Warm Regards


Thursday, December 24, 2009

I apologize to Guruji

I think for the time being I can apologize to Guruji and the Dera.

Dhan Dhan Satguru Tera Hi Asra...

Althought Guruji has disappointed me, and I will never deny that. But it is too early to conclude.

Warm Regards


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Program Cancelled

Will not be able to start Weaving Dreams due to lack of time. I need to concentrate on my studies for the time being, something like 3-5 hours daily which doesn't leave me a couple of hours every day for WD that too at odd hours with respect to my college timings.

Nevertheless, I plan to expand Weaving Thoughts and if possible spend more time to it.

Warm Regards


Thursday, December 17, 2009

December 2007

I regret that decision.

In December 2007 I went to Guruji (Sirsa) to solve my problem. He supposedly showed me the path and moved me away from the path of suicide. In February 2008 I reiterated that my dreams will be blessed true. I regret of not having committed suicide back then, when I had the will and the power.

Today I stand, weaker than ever. He asks for another 2.5 years to pass by before any of my wishes can be granted. Now how is that fair? Is he not being unfair? Isn't he cheating me?

And how the hell is it in best interest to go through so much pain. I see no reason as to how it can benefit anybody.

I am so disappointed. But then I have no choice but walk his path and study my ass off the next 2.5 years.

From tomorrow I will now try to study some 4 odd hours daily in the hope of inviting heaven to my life.

:) :( :P :D

Movies are no fun...

Movies are no longer fun. Just today I went for Rocket Singh in gold class with Gagandeep, despite spending a couple of thoussands today I am not satisfied.

Movies are no longer what they used to mean to me. I always miss my angel and want to be with her. I try to feel her, always. I crave for her each second.

Why God? Why?


Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The WAIT continues...

Returned from Sirsa, last evening. The wait in my quest to happiness continues for the time being. On losing the bet I win VICTORY.

Let time unfold...

Friday, December 11, 2009

My Destiny is Death...

I have got no choice but hope that my destiny is death. And destiny real soon. That is the only way to relieve me of my pain.

So much I long for death. I see no other solution. Alas! I don't know when will that joyful moment come?

So much do I long for death...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I feel like I am in love :)

I almost feel like I am in love. I just upgraded me PC worth around 60 grands and I am almost in love with the performance. Almost everything runs perfect, much better than I could have dreamt or asked for. Things go silky smooth. I can multitask without pretty much any hassles.

And this is the kind of performance increase I get when I already have a hi fi rig in most people opinions.

Processor : Core i7 860
Like 10% or something slower than the fastest CPU in the world and a whole lot faster than my previous CPU which was upgraded just about 6 months back for around 15 grands. Previously I had a quad core Intel Q9550 2.83GHz.

Motherboard : MSI P55 GD65
HardOCP VFM enthusiast motherboard. Need I asy more? My previous motherboard was crap.

RAM : (to be upgraded to this) G Skill Ripjaw series DDR3 1600 CAS 8
One of the fastest RAMs out there. 2 X 2GB. Even previously I had 4 GB RAM.

HDD : 1TB Seagate 7200.12 32mb cache
Oodles of fast space. Much faster than my previous Western Digital Green 640GB.

2 new DVD RWs, the old one was slow and worn out. One 22x Samsung and the other HP 24x.

And the greatest of all, the card which Americans today crave for and which few Indians have. Sapphire HD 5850 1GB which is one of the fastest graphic cards money can buy if you leave out dual GPU configurations and the best thing is that it is DX 11 compatible. :D

The CPU cooler Thermalright Ultra 120 is to be put on soon as well. And I just came to know that my PSU was GP AL650AA and not AL650A, now that is something. :)

NFS Shift runs way better than the way even NFS Undercover used to run on my previous rig. It is nearly flawless. Farcry 2 and Call of Juarez : Bound in Blood are even better, especially the later. FEAR 2 and UT 3 run awesome and even Dirt 2 runs great.

Except Crysis, I play all games at 1920x1080 full HD everything maxed out with or without AA depending on the game and AF set 16x. PERIOD!!!

Had it not been for Crysis, I would probably have gone absolutely crazy over it. :( :D

Had I not fallen in love with my angel, I would have fallen in love with this performance for sure, LOL. Just kidding!

I still miss my angel a hell of a lot and will wait for her after death...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

It is all WORTH the wait...

I have heard that our unfilled wishes are fullfilled in heaven. I wait for the moment when Heaven will embrace me and I will have my angel with me. It is all WORTH the wait. If required, I will live past this life for her...

In the meanwhile, please try to understand this riddle:

The first truth and the biggest lie is the existence of God.