The Lonely Drift

I walk alone. All on my side, but, yet alone. I flow with this dirty tide. No friend do I have, none on my side. I never experienced companionship. I wish I wasn't born. I wish to stop fighting soon enough. But my creator doesn't let night dawn.

Why don't I have friends you may ask? Thank God I don't have those who anyway won't last. Well, I don't really mean to say that I thank God, partly being an athiest. But anyway, what is the point of having people who are not good enough for me? What is the point of people I don't regard equal to me?

At least I am gifted. And I am alone gifted. Well, at least I call one in a billion to be alone, don't know about you. So I had to probably be born alone. But to apply the Law of Symmetry, mustn't I die alone too? I don't know, I am yet to master this unchanging law I discovered.

I hate life. I love death. I love to be no more. I love to not be alone any more. What a fool I have been? Always been truthful and honest to be shredded to tears and left crying but still having death spare me. I don't wish to continue this journey too long. But alas, the path has just begun and everything has gone all wrong.

Let us get back to the task. Let REVENGE be my mask, to hide my tears. Let money rule, let the cruel seem CooL, I don't want to become another fool by diving into the pool of the commoners yet again.

I know I have disappointed my readers, but, I hope that you like this one and enjoy it until the times dawns for another pun, and I am really sorry, but not forever will those relying on me see the Sun.

Peace!

And remember, revenge does bring peace. Although it is wrong, it makes you strong.

Fuck!!

Jaane wale ko kaun rok sakta hai :S

How can I stop somebody from going? How can I save somebody from dieing? How can I save the person from crying? And why should I now even start trying?

Hone ko to sab kuch ho sakta hai, bahut mil sakta hai, aur kuch kho sakta hai. Par kara kyun jaye, waqt se ladha kyun jaye. Bin soche samjhe mar kyun na diya jaye? Why not at least try?

I cant help it. I was made to do it. I don't wanna help it, I better get down to it.

I will be back and it will only take a "soon". Don't you worry, just enjoy your noon, nap mera matlab oye :P

Too much to do, too short a time left, let me get going now, and leave the rest to myself! :D

(HAHAHAHAHA)

Bhoots do Exist

Had exams going. And was spending some time breaking the ceilings of high range IQ tests as well, well, almost. lol

Well, coming to the point. According to paranormal science, bhoots or ghosts as we call them do exist in reality. They are definitely not a part of our every day living. However, to call them non-existent would technically wrong, wrong, and misleading.

Bad (most of the time invisible) spirits do exist and when they take birth as a human we call them psychopaths. I personally know of one for sure. But that is of course besides the point. No matter what some saints say, of course only those who are deprived of advanced scientific knowledge, there is no denying that spirits do exist and not all spirits are angels.

Although I don't want to send shivers down your spine nor keep you up late at night with goosebumps, but the next time you hear of a story, try not to belittle it. And NO it hasn't really ever happened to me as yet, thankfully :)

Don't Take It!!!

Do I think ill for the person I once loved(now I only love my angel who is imaginary)?
Not really.

Would I be happy if is harmed and cries?
Of course, yes...But,

I don't want to harm her. I understand that being a sociopath God has indeed chosen a tough life for her where she will never have the chance of feeling any genuine love or deep happiness. I pity her and want to make her a human, and I surely will, in my next life.

However, being human, I can't get over the pain I am going through and her unhappiness genuinely will put a smile to my heart. I don't even want to loose this feeling because as it is I will never get even the slightest happiness or peace in this life. So, why should I loose something which at least gives me some happiness?

At least this much is my right, is it not? I am not harming her, not even thinking ill of her. But if something bad does happen to her, independent of me, then why can't I be happy? In my next life of course I will try my best to forget about this life and love her enough to convert that stone brick into a warm heart.

But as of now, what can I do? Ain't my fault, sorry!!

The Degrading Trail

This pain, that is confronting me is constantly washing me away. I don't think that I can ever be truly happy again. I don't think that anything is going to be worth it. In a dream situation, that I end up being loved by my angel...but...

But, after all this pain and hell that I am going through, I don't think that will be really able to give me that kind of happiness that I once could have got, that I really need to live a happy life. I don't think that anything is going to be worth it.

This journey is really killing me, every second, every part of my body and soul, everything is being drunk away by the likes of a void called hell. I doubt there will ever be genuine and extreme happiness for me. In a rare case of even being loved, I won't be able to feel the love and definitely not the happiness.

That is what I feel and I doubt if I can be wrong because I rarely am wrong without a purpose. I hate life so much, if anybody is dieing and needs an extra life, prey that you get mine. And that won't take you to hell because you have my permission and wishes alongside as well.

Life is hell, life is bad, life is sad, just cut the crap!!!

Lost Flavor

Over the last few years, I have lost a flavor called happiness. Being constantly in a state of pain and sorrow I don't even know how does it feel to be happy because over the recent few years I have seldom faced that emotion.

All I know is that life is bad and there is no joy anywhere, living is painful and a constant burden which I need to bear for another couple of years. I don't know if I will ever be happy again...:(

Test Of Love

One can say that a person is genuinely in true love if:

The NEED for the attainment and absolute well being and happiness of the other soul is greater than the summation of all desires and needs faced by him till that date, which include both active as well as passive needs/desires both at the conscious as well as sub conscious level.

A shorter but more unrealistic test would be that a person would still love her if he died and that there would be no change in the nature or intensity of that love caused by death.