Now, That is Not Nice...

I have not received any payments from any of my clients in the last 1.5-2 days, not even $1. Now that is not too good. :(

I am really looking forward to a couple hundred dollars tomorrow, hopefully. :O

Does anybody know the reason for such bad luck? :P

Aakshey

Back on Anti-depressants...

Hi

Preponed my appointment for my physcatrist today. Back on anti-depressants as am really depressed.

Need I say more?

Does anybody need any more reasons from my side?

Regards

Aakshey

Proving that God doesn't exist...

Now, who do we call God? Somebody who is full of love and compassion, somebody saturated with mercy. Right?

But wrong! Such a person doesn't exist. Had such a person existed would a lover be left separated from his lover forever, with no solution to the problem. No way of ever meeting again, not even after death. No love, only pain?

I can understand the Law of Karma and even some forms of handicaps, but separating a lover from another that too when you call him/her saturated with love makes no damn sense. Think about it...

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I really don't know why all that happened and whatever is happening or whatever is NOT happening, why is it or is it not happening. I am pretty confused and I must say I am confident enough to conclude that there is something fallaciously wrong in God's philosophies like "Whatever Happens, Happens For The Best".

I am 100% sure and enough to bet even my life on the same that whatever happened was crap and whatever is happening is not going to take any of us anywhere. I am pretty sure of that. What basically happened was to make a mockery of me and not the things are well nothing but that.

:(

Before Pulling the Trigger

A few goals I aim to accomplish before pulling the trigger:

Age 22 : Rs.5 lacs a month

Age 25 : Rs.20 lacs a month

Age 30 : MULTIMILLIONAIRE

And if things go right at the speed they are then I hope I make my dreams come true soon. This month I am already expecting a net income of Rs. 1.5-2 lacs and I really hope that I am able to make over 10-15 lacs in this financial year so it is not that bad a start at all.

In fact, this income is a huge improvement since before and I do hope that the bulk of work I am getting right now stays, so do the clients and writers. Then eventually I will start more businesses as well.

Let us hope for the best...

Obsessions VS Love

Was talking about obsessions with a friend recently, so thought should include a bit on that as well. I won't really be discussing much about love here, I guess I have done that before. I will just mention the factors which differentiates obsessions from true love.


The two characteristics of obsessions are:

It doesn't last forever. If not in this life then in the life after death, it will end sometime. The same can't be said about love.

It is selfish and with a motive which is not selfless. This is again contrary to love.

If any of the above mentioned characteristics are met then we can say that an obsession is at hand.


Also, obsessions are always with non-materialistic things and in case somebody is obsessed with a soul then that person is considering that soul to be a non-materialistic thing or a toy.

There is a degree of obsessiveness, you can be more or less obsessive, with time for instance. Love is constant, it starts from infitity and you love infinitely to infinity, it can't be measured. You can't love more or less. Obsessions are relative in that sense whereas love is absolute.

Another point to note will be that the work "Obsession" has a plural whereas Love is unchanged, ever, wherever, whoever, forever...:P

For instance, I love an imaginery angel but at one point of time was almost obsessed with my computer. So, well, obsessions needn't be only bad either.


Next post coming up soon :D

Living an Illusion...

Can you tell me what it is to discover that you are living a life of illusion? I discovered this about myself a couple of months back, December 27th 2008...

I have lived the answer and I hate it. I wish there was a solution but ALAS!!! There is nobody to support me in such a quest and there is nobody to look upto, all that is left is life without any rest...

Hoping for better readership...

Cya